...to practice, to find energy, but I still try....prayer, teaching and asana and the angels I call friends are my medicine...but at night, I cannot sleep...I mean I CANNOT sleep, it doesn't matter how exhausted or drained I am (and I have been recently)...the silence of night crawls into my skull and taps away at me "what's up?? whatcha thinkin'? whatcha doin'? "....and I start to process: the day, the asana I did, what's happening with one of my yoga groups that I teach, am I too old to essentially start my life over the way I want to (more on this thought later)....I remember "vairagya"....I meditate sometimes, but sometimes I forget to keeping plugging away at the little steps I think I need to find peace...I'm bleary-eyed, tired and rambling (I hope I'm still eloquent though :) )
maybe a haiku before i try to turn my savant-genius brain to the "Off" position, if only for a moment
"i turn the lights off
in my head, the bulb still burns
inhale...exhale..."sigh"
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